***YAAAAAWN***

Oh man....am I feeling like that right now.


Take one 500mg Vicodin, add two 220mg Aleeve, and 2 Benadryl tablets...and this is what you get.


That would be me.


I got my first night sleep in over a week, last night. Went to my physical therapy appointment at 10am. She worked on my TMJ. I told her that I finally slept soundly, but it was on my bad shoulder. I also ended up with a hip that was so painfully sore, I could barely walk. She massaged it for less than 5 minutes, which brought me to tears. So, I scheduled a massage to go to as soon as I left the PT's office. In the meantime, my PT aid I should start taking 2 Aleeve, along with my Vicodin. Apparently the bursa in my left hip has flared up, to match my left shoulder. So...I head to my masseuse. He barely got started on me and was noting how badly my skin was reacting to touch. My histamine levels are SSOOO high that my body is reacting by having SEVERE inflammation issues right now. So, he recommended that I start taking 2 Benadryl.

I am sssooooo sleepy right now. Sleepy enough that I might just pass out.

I'm gonna have to write more later. I have a MRI tomorrow. I'll try to write how all is going sometime after that appointment.


I hope you all have a great evening!

I'm LOSIN' IT!!!!

Crazy week.


This weekend, Dayna spilled water on my Blackberry that I got this summer. It would turn on, ring when called, and receive all emails, texts, etc....but, I could retrieve nothing. So, Monday I took it to the Verizon store. Thank goodness my friend was there and said, "I've seen this before. The buttons don't work. Lucky thing for you, we got a shipment of BRAND NEW Blackberry's in. Let me swap yours out"...and proceed to replace my phone with a new one, and all of its accessories. He's so wonderful to me!

UNfortunately....I lost my calendar. So, I am flying by the seat of my pants with having a TON of information an appointments that were lost on the old phone. One of which was today's appointment: an appraiser that came out to the house. All I knew was that it was after 10am. Good thing for me, I had the house all nice and clean (and me all nice and clean)....and was prepared for her when she happened to show up at 11am.

I had also forgotten that I was picking up my girlfriend's two kids and feeding them tonight. Trip to the store for extra dinner makings. I did stop by the RedBox movie kiosk and get a few movies. "Mirrors", which was too gruesome for me, but had an EXCELLENT story twist..."Lakeview Terrace" which was AWESOME!!!...."The Women" and "Swing Vote", which we haven't watched yet.

My girlfriend's kids left. Alyssa had a MASSIVE....MAJOR meltdown. We go through this with her almost every month. Which in turn, flairs her eczema up to an INCREDIBLE level. Well, I tried to help her out....but, looks like I got deemed the "bad guy". I'm a damned good mom. The whole mother/daughter struggles that happen so infrequently in this house between myself and my eldest two just break my heart. They are so unnecessary. One day, when they have girls of their own, maybe they too, will understand.



On the HAPPY side of the coin, I got some really interesting news today. There is a very good chance that I will start writing for a magazine in the near future. I will be doing articles on travel, arts, wine/spirits, and possibly fashion. I'm really excited about the possibilities! I would be working from home (it sounds like), which is a nice benefit. Seeing as how I have not been sleeping, I could actually pump out a BUNCH of articles, and store them up for future editions.

I thought that was exciting news. :)

Anyways...I don't think I have any appointments tomorrow. Maybe I will take a sleeping pill tonight, as I haven't slept in DAYS. I got my cortisone shot in my shoulder on Friday and took x-rays. I guess the films turned out fine, so they are sending me in for an MRI. Should hear about my appt. by the end of the week. The shot just ain't cutting it, and physical therapy is only helping so much. Good thing I have my new job possibility to keep my mind off of my pain. That....and my Vicodin. ;)

So....what's new with YOU?

UUGggghhhhh....

That's Dayna's latest show. She's a blondie on the right side. That's best I can give ya. I wasn't there, and a friend video taped this one for me. She has another competition this weekend....I'll post that when I get it recorded.







BUSY, BUSY, BUSY weekend!!

Looks like I may be coordinating my 25th reunion for the high school I graduated from in Fresno. I grew up in southern California....and I attend BOTH reunions, when they have them. Looks like I am kicking around a 3 or 4 day Mexican cruise for the Fresno reunion. Gives everyone time to save up (should be cheap, though).

I've posted the idea on Facebook...everyone kicking it around seems to like it so far. Now....to put thing in action...


What did YOU do this weekend?


Hey Kohl.....how's that job comin'? Does it look like I will be down there in February for a rockin' Ozomatli concert??? ;)

If so....JoAnn.....shall I stay at your house and wreak havoc and school you in Guitar Hero??? lol

Everyone's free...

....and that includes me.


And you.


Seeing as how I am trying to go through a "personal growth" period, I thought I would share with you one of my favorite songs.

It's so inspiring.

Listen...to...every...word.

My baggage....

Well, it's been a busy day. Ups and downs...back and forths. And....I'm tired.

All of this emotional stress has caused me to rely upon myself....to release myself from the bondage that I have been held by for years. And....I'm doing just that. I promise to no longer hold myself prisoner in my own life. Just because I feel one way....strongly....and have hopes, dreams and aspirations....doesn't mean that others share that with me.

So....off come the cuffs that I have placed on my life.




I am really hoping that this will be the fresh new start that I need. That this will be the first of many layers to a happier, healthier life.


Some of us grow and mature faster and wiser than others. It took me a little longer to see the light. I feel sorry for those that are still stuck in the dark.


I hate that I had to thicken my skin to get here....but, I shall consider it something that needed to be done. I sat in the fire as long as I could. Allowed God to work on me until His job was finished, and I understood.

I believe I have arrived at my first stop of many.


I hope that you, too, are able to find light in your darkness.....

Was this REALLY needed???

And, so it starts....

It's 11:30am.....less than 2 hours after Obama has been sworn in...and my middle daughter is already being harassed at school. I CANNOT believe this!!

A classmate turned to her and said, "I would shoot Bush, if he were worth the bullet". This was a 16 year old GIRL!!! My daughter told her that she shouldn't say that and got, "You just don't like Obama because he's BLACK!"....as is this student.

I am a HUGE believe in equal rights. H-U-G-E. I WILL NOT tolerate ANY race, religion, orientation even BEGIN to harass my children. NONE.
You DON'T want me to go "MAMA BEAR" on you!!