UUGggghhhhh....

That's Dayna's latest show. She's a blondie on the right side. That's best I can give ya. I wasn't there, and a friend video taped this one for me. She has another competition this weekend....I'll post that when I get it recorded.







BUSY, BUSY, BUSY weekend!!

Looks like I may be coordinating my 25th reunion for the high school I graduated from in Fresno. I grew up in southern California....and I attend BOTH reunions, when they have them. Looks like I am kicking around a 3 or 4 day Mexican cruise for the Fresno reunion. Gives everyone time to save up (should be cheap, though).

I've posted the idea on Facebook...everyone kicking it around seems to like it so far. Now....to put thing in action...


What did YOU do this weekend?


Hey Kohl.....how's that job comin'? Does it look like I will be down there in February for a rockin' Ozomatli concert??? ;)

If so....JoAnn.....shall I stay at your house and wreak havoc and school you in Guitar Hero??? lol

Everyone's free...

....and that includes me.


And you.


Seeing as how I am trying to go through a "personal growth" period, I thought I would share with you one of my favorite songs.

It's so inspiring.

Listen...to...every...word.

My baggage....

Well, it's been a busy day. Ups and downs...back and forths. And....I'm tired.

All of this emotional stress has caused me to rely upon myself....to release myself from the bondage that I have been held by for years. And....I'm doing just that. I promise to no longer hold myself prisoner in my own life. Just because I feel one way....strongly....and have hopes, dreams and aspirations....doesn't mean that others share that with me.

So....off come the cuffs that I have placed on my life.




I am really hoping that this will be the fresh new start that I need. That this will be the first of many layers to a happier, healthier life.


Some of us grow and mature faster and wiser than others. It took me a little longer to see the light. I feel sorry for those that are still stuck in the dark.


I hate that I had to thicken my skin to get here....but, I shall consider it something that needed to be done. I sat in the fire as long as I could. Allowed God to work on me until His job was finished, and I understood.

I believe I have arrived at my first stop of many.


I hope that you, too, are able to find light in your darkness.....

Was this REALLY needed???

And, so it starts....

It's 11:30am.....less than 2 hours after Obama has been sworn in...and my middle daughter is already being harassed at school. I CANNOT believe this!!

A classmate turned to her and said, "I would shoot Bush, if he were worth the bullet". This was a 16 year old GIRL!!! My daughter told her that she shouldn't say that and got, "You just don't like Obama because he's BLACK!"....as is this student.

I am a HUGE believe in equal rights. H-U-G-E. I WILL NOT tolerate ANY race, religion, orientation even BEGIN to harass my children. NONE.
You DON'T want me to go "MAMA BEAR" on you!!

THANK GOD!!!

IT'S OVER!!!



Was it just me, or did it seem like the entire nation has been holding it's breath ever since the Presidential-elect was announced?

Maybe it's my news-work-side that has jaded me so. I was on pins and needles hoping that the inauguration went off without any problems. I didn't vote for our new President...but, I'm also smart enough to know that if anything would have happened to him today, that it would be HORRIBLE for our country.

I watched the entire inauguration, which like most Americans, was probably my first. Thought Aretha sounded like she needed a little help...although, she's till one hell of a singer....thought the prayer from Dr. Rick Warren was very good...could have done without Feinstein....thought Bush looked tired...the Obama girls looked adorable....and the benediction was decent...a little racist...but, humorous, none-the-less.

HOWEVER....I thought CBS' coverage commentary was TERRIBLE!! I've ALWAYS had a heart for Katie Couric, but I SSOOOO lost all respect for her during her commentary today. I thought she was monumentally disrespectful of our out-going President. Could not say ONE nice thing. I don't know about YOUR mom, but I was always told that if you can't say something nice.....don't say anything at all. Katie, obviously, did NOT learn that lesson. I TOTALLY felt like the media was playing their card. I think this was one of the great reasons why I didn't enjoy my time in TV as much as I could have. I don't like to see media abuse of power. But..another story for another time.

All in all, I thought that DC did a fabulous job in handling the crowds, and the event itself, was very nice.

Now.....it's time for the country (and me) to exhale, and pray that this will be as smooth a transition as possible, and that Mr. President will fulfill his duties to the best of his capabilities.

May God Bless America.

Ready for a new day....

Had that today....

Ice massage....for 30 minutes. Along with heat therapy....ultrasound....and e-stem (electric pulse shock) treatment. Two hours worth of physical therapy for my jaw and shoulder. Left side of my jaw is back to being in a HUGE KNOT...even though I am using my jaw splint and bionator religiously. ***sigh***

So....since the therapy on my shoulder has not been working, I get to go through THIS again:








Appointment is on the 23rd. :( I hate cortisone shots. Granted....they WORK...just not very comfortable.


As far as the jaw goes....saw the TMJ doc today. He's not thrilled with how I was doing well...and now my mouth is getting "used" to the appliances, and is backsliding. He says they might have to make one or two different appliances. I guess that even with the night time appliance (bionator), I'm clenching so hard, they fear that I will bite right through the appliance. I had NO idea that a human could bite down SO HARD....DURING sleep.....all night long. I'm exhausted. Between the shoulder and me not sleeping (let ALONE through the night), my fibro is trying desperately to get the best of me. I'm back on Vicodin...much to my dismay.


My dad's not doing well. He's down to 112 pounds. I guess they are rapidly pushing him through the UCSF program to be seen by some GI specialsits. He has intestinal and lung issues that they can't seem to diagnose. He's withering away, and my heart is breaking. And, of course, I'm not dealing with it well. When someone close to me becomes deathly ill, I tend to get angry, and pull back....pretending like it's not going to happen. Which is a real bullshit approach. Doesn't get me anywhere. At least I know my issue. Just gotta deal with it.

Seems like there is a lot for me to deal with right now in my life. There's a lot I really DON'T want to face....and it's just right there IN my face...not leaving me alone. Good thing I'm pretty damned strong. I have to admit...I feel pretty beat up right now. I just hope I have the strength to get through the next few years....

By the way....Briana and Lee set a date: June 5th, 2010. So, I guess we will start planning soon. She's already starting a guest list. Has the place locked in. Wants to dress shop in March, I believe. I can't believe my baby is getting married....

I hope life treats her well.